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June Ambitions

 Dear Diary,

OMG, it's been forever.

Enough of that. It has been a few months, but life happens.

What did I do in April and May? I'd say I spent my creative time in May "doing art." Mostly I was getting back into the habit of drawing in a sketchbook with some kind of regularity. 



This carried over into May, when I also completed this painting, which kind of started the whole, "I want to paint Looney Tunes backgrounds" thing in the first place:

Also in May, I told myself that I was going to "write more." This did happen to an extent. And I think more importantly, I realized that if I want to achieve that goal, I work better if I have some kind of outline and some kind of guidelines.

But as everyone knows from all of history, setting and keeping to new habits is very difficult. Especially when you're the only one to hold yourself accountable. However, where the writing was sparse, I'd say that my mind was alive with new ideas and forming some kind of outline for the story that I have envisioned in my mind.

So, progress.

I would not say that I wasted April and May, generally. In fact, I was very creatively productive, just a bit aimless.

This brings us to June, does it not?

It's June. In fact, today is the longest day of the year. I'm spending the ass-end of this month at a friend's house in Connecticut. She isn't here, but her cats are. I'm in a pretty secluded town with a bitchin back yard and hiking trails only a matter of minutes away. It's kind of ideal.

So in the next week and a half, my goal is to "write more." Tale as old as time. But like, if not now! I brought with me my writing binder (with my current project notes, outline, etc.), some art materials, books to read and a ukulele. There is no TV here (which doesn't mean what it once did with the advent of streaming services), so I'm trying to lean into that fact and be as creatively productive as possible.

I don't know what I'm hoping for necessarily by the end of this month with writing... I guess I just want enough uninterrupted time to get words on a page. And give myself a springboard to have more focus moving forward.

I want to get to that point in writing where you don't want to stop. Flow. I want flow. So with that, I'll check in at some point and reflect.

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